Its Like Getting Hit By A Bus

Life~

What is? Well, reality.

I tend to play god a lot. What do i mean? I thought I could have my own choices and make my own decisions. But its not as simple as that. Being at the top of everything, well at least i feel like I was at the top of everything. But when reality hits, its like getting hit by a bus. When I thought I was all that, well I'm not. I have been living in a one man world I would say. I thought I was the best and I had the right to make my own decisions but then like I said, when reality hits, I just wish I had been a more different person.

Confidence, something I have very little of. Why? Lost them a couple of years ago. I recently gotten them back again after string of events but lost them again. Confidence is probably one of the most important things you need to continue living. I tell my juniors that without confidence, you are close to being nothing and a nobody. They all think I have a lot of it cause of the way I behave, but I would say act. Like I said, "act".

So where do we go from here? Back to square one I would say. I mean, who am I kidding? So lets just shut up and do nothing.

What does it all mean actually? The more I hear the more I think how noble and respected one person should be but when the cat is finally out of the basket and the pieces have all fallen into place, its not that perfect after all. But then, sorry lar I am not like that, really it was my fault in the first place anyways. Jokes on me! Ha ha.

cyen/tristan