Not to Worry, cuz' Worry is Wasteful

Life~

8 Hours Ago :

Okay, i'm going to get straight to the point here. Today was the cross-country and I have did my part while some did not but I will not push the blame to anyone. I am responsible for my houses' embarassment. We finished last and would probably be ridiculed by the rest. As for me, I guess I officially suck now at my school. I do care about my reputation(Im not sure if there is any to begin with) so today will probably label me as the biggest loser in the entire school. Yeah, it's sad but I guess i'll live. Despite having a pair of very very tired legs, I still ran most of the way.

I also have to admit, I might look and sound like someone that is really into sports and stuff but half the time I am pretty lost. I also wouldn't consider myself as someone that is good in management but I the higher authorities believed I could deliver so I will do my best. Many a time I am close to giving up but after long hours of emo-ing I just feel that its not worth giving up now. I have to say, I am not liked or popular among my house members, but at this point I could hardly care about what they think, I am just going to do what I can.

I have also learned something today. It isn't something new so it was kinda something like a reminder. No one can be trusted, unless they are really really close to you. When life seems a bit too good and when things are going too right for you, its always safe to just take a deep breath and look back. Nothing in life is that easy. When someone says he or she is gonna go down with you and watch your back, think twice. Leave ur back unguarded and you will get your back stabbed. I am rather annoyed with this matter but I will just let it go. Lifes filled with lessons and I have learned mine. My sports house is for me to handle and I have learned to think twice before accepting help from others. If i'm going down, I might as well go down with pride, laugh at me, all my life I have been spit and stepped on, nothing new to me. After all, thats life.

It hurts finishing last and being the laughing stock of the entire school. In fact, I think I would lose a couple of friends too. Maybe one or two might have looked up to me but this morning has proved how lousy I can be. After the run today, I came back, hit the showers and went straight to sleep. I wasn't in the mood for anything so I guess sleep was all I needed. This week has been just awful for me. Nothing went my way and my confidence level has been dropping ever since.

3 Hours Ago :

My friends paid me a visit. To be specific, Ywen, Yik Sean and Melissa. Ywen called me before he came and said he wanted to pass me something. So I agreed and just waited for them to arrive. I was still very down that time but when they came. They completely changed the mood. All of them are so filled with spirit, especially Yik Sean. I really don't know what i'd do without them. I have been feeling very very lonely lately. Everyone seems to be leaving and no one seems to be looking back. To be honest, I'm scared to go tru my life alone. I guess its all cuz I'm an Aries. Heh!

So anyways, they came and totally changed my day. They gave me my early birthday present. I really realy, did not see this coming. They actually bought me a guitar, JUST because I said I've always wanted to learn and I never thought that day would come SO fast. I would also like to thank the 9 others who pitched in and bought me this amazing gift. You guys AND a couple of girls are awesome, just awesome. I have nothing to repay you guys AND a couple of girls but my time and my words. I would do anything for a friend, and I will never forget you all, as long as my heart keeps beating, you all can always rely on me. Thank you guys AND a couple of girls, you guys AND a couple of girls really made my day.

cyen/tristan