The End Is Coming

Life~

Today I had a very meaningful chat with a close bud. I realize that all this while I have been really childish and the only thing I should do now is to end what I created in the first place. No one is going to do it so I will make the first move. I cannot stop what is happening but at least after I pull myself out from the mess I can finally have some peace.

I realize now that I cannot rely on anyone to settle my problems and the only way to settle them is to end it myself.

Things have become very complicated of late. I for one, tried silencing the problem and tried ignoring it but I know now that if I continue to ignore this problem, everyone around will just suffer for my wrong doings. Yes, they stab me, they refuse to take sides but I am after all, a friend and it will be my responsibility and possibly my last one before I move to the next part of my life. It has been very hard for the past few years but now I think I can finally see how things work in life. A little slow but the most important thing is that I finally get it now.

After all, it is a known fact that when a problem arises, nobody wants to be in the wrong. No one wants to be blamed. I don't. So does everyone else. But this thing has been going on long enough that it isn't funny anymore, its just annoying and the people involved are just equally as annoying.

The end is coming. When it comes I don't know what will happen but I don't think it will be pretty but oh what the heck, someones gonna do or say something right? Life is already a challenge so why make it any easier? I use to think that it is important for people to know me as the good guy, well I still think that but its not that important if you want to be right. As long as I know I am right, I don't mind being the bad guy. Anyways, I am already the villain in this story, so for someone that loves acting and role playing, it is just about time I gave my best performance and finish up the show. Who knows, I might get nominated for the Best Villain of the year! or at least for the past 4 years. Haha!

cyen/tristan